serenity

 i hate it when im trying to play a game and my little brother comes running in begging me to get on the computer to play wizard101. i always tell him im busy but he never listens. he just nags and nags. its so annoying. but yesterday he didnt ask me anything. he never came into my room. i almost hoped he would come running in again to ask to play. i dont like the silence anymore. i know hes there. he just thinks ill get mad at him again. i feel bad. i know he just wants to play. he just wants to have fun. but i thought i needed to grow up faster. turns out growing up sucks. so why would i try to take childhood from him? today he asked me to take a break. i asked why. he said he knows i cant pretend anymore. i cant hide. i cant wait. i have to be brave. he held my hands and said he would still be here when i forget about him. i told him to never say something like that again. youre wrong. i will remember you. i wont let you go. not after what happened to us. not after all weve been through. tears prick the corners of my eyes. i dont want to forget you. i dont. i dont want to. i watch him disappear. im sorry. i love you. you can play whatever you want now.

- iz